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Post by possiblehelp on Apr 5, 2017 8:06:13 GMT
Confusion... confusion describes TMAU perfectly. Why would one reek of a strong musty smell if the odor is not originating from the armpits? Common sense would tell us "If you smell musty, then the smell is originating from the armpits", right? But NO,NO, NO that is not how it works with TMAU (Or whatever this illness is). TMAU defies all common-sense and understanding. With TMAU it's difficult to pinpoint where in the hell the smell is coming from. It leaves both parties confused (The sufferer and those around the sufferer). Those around you think "I know he/she smells that musty smell. Why doesn't he/she wash under their armpits?" So they are confused, and not only are they confused but so are you!! It leaves you thinking "People are commenting of a musty smell, but I smelled my armpits and don't smell anything! Where on my body is the smell coming from?" The thing is.... NO ONE KNOWS WHERE IT'S COMING FROM! But it's definitely coming from you but you just don't know where or how it even comes out. What really defies common sense is how it can make you smell as if you passed gas. That in itself defies common sense because how can a person's body odor smell like flatulence? Does that even makes sense? This leads to ignorance because the average person is using common sense and thinking if they smell a flatulence smell then that means someone passed gas, right? Even you, the sufferer, if you smelled a flatulence smell you will automatically assume someone passed gas because you're using common sense, but how do we know someone else around us suffers from TMAU too and we automatically assume they passed gas because we think they're normal,so they must have passed gas, right? But even WE can be wrong, because they could have the illness too and we'll never know because we all suffer in silence.
This illness makes you a scapegoat. We take on the blame of our odor as if it's our fault. Sometimes the smell of flatulence is created and you have to take on the blame as if you really passed gas. When the smell of flatulence is created, nobody has proof that you really didn't pass gas because they aren't inside your body, they can only go by the smell which leads to more misunderstanding and ignorance, because the smells created are actual smells that are only produced during certain situations. I don't really care as much about what people think anymore, but this was something I was thinking about. TMAU is all about confusion and mind-games.
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Post by possiblehelp on Apr 5, 2017 8:33:14 GMT
With TMAU there are two realities. In one reality (to those around you) you farted. In your reality (the true reality) you didn't pass gas, but somehow the smell is there. In their world (those around you) you're farting, you're not brushing your teeth, you're not wiping your behind, you're not washing under your armpits ect. You're breaking every hygiene rule because you're just a lazy person who doesn't care about yourself, therefore you deserve disrespect, right?
Then on your end, you're in another reality. In your reality (the real reality) You brush your teeth, you wash under your arms, you're not farting ect. You have to PROVE that your reality is the true reality. The average person doesn't have to prove their reality, they just live it. But we go through the hassles of trying to prove that our reality is the right one and that theirs is wrong. The only problem is we can't prove this to EVERY person we meet! Nobody has time to do that... it's impossible. You can't prove that to everyone on a daily basis because you run across people everyday. You don't have time to prove it everyone you come into contact with unless you wear a shirt with big letters saying "I stink because I have medical issue". But even if you did wear a shirt stating that, some people actually never smell you, so you'll be exposing yourself when you could of kept something like that to yourself. When you have TMAU it's like you're a public figure. Nothing about you is private anymore. You're exposed publicly everyday. Your shame is put on display. It's like you might as well come out in the public and run around naked and shit in public in front of everyone! Walk outside naked with diahrrea dripping from your back end and expose your naked body for all to see. Thats how exposed it makes you feel. Humiliating.
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Post by tintin10 on Apr 6, 2017 20:18:35 GMT
Very well said there Possible Help, you just about summed up what my life has been like. I suppose I can see how people must think I am very ignorant, farting in front of them while as you said I ve no control over it, I don't even know something is wrong unless somebody makes a comment. This has got to be one of the cruelest conditions possible, what a nightmare my life has been. Thanks for your post, it's nice to realise I m not alone though I wouldn't wish this condition on anybody.
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Post by possiblehelp on Apr 16, 2018 21:20:23 GMT
Very well said there Possible Help, you just about summed up what my life has been like. I suppose I can see how people must think I am very ignorant, farting in front of them while as you said I ve no control over it, I don't even know something is wrong unless somebody makes a comment. This has got to be one of the cruelest conditions possible, what a nightmare my life has been. Thanks for your post, it's nice to realise I m not alone though I wouldn't wish this condition on anybody. I know I'm a year late but this disorder is cruel because we're forced to live/behave like we don't stink or that there isn't a problem when we're around family members and friends. Family and friends say it's all in our heads. But then we go to work, school or any other public place it's a totally different world. In those places for some odd reason... WE STINK! You would think that the people you're around the most (family and friends) would be more likely to smell you, but crazily the people who aren't around you all the time are the ones who can smell you. It's like emotional abuse or even physical abuse. You're being punched daily in the outside world only to come home to be told it never happened. We are being abused and then made to act like it's not happening. We also have to deal with disrespect, humiliation and embarrassment. I think sometimes 'what if I was an evil person in my past life for me to have something so cruel'. I'm just tired of being laughed at. My co-workers have been laughing at me and I know they are! I deserve respect and NONE OF THEM are better than me. This disorder gives people an excuse to treat us with disrespect and give us no consideration. Sometimes I think God hates me and never loved me in the first place.
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Post by possiblehelp on Apr 16, 2018 21:22:54 GMT
Very well said there Possible Help, you just about summed up what my life has been like. I suppose I can see how people must think I am very ignorant, farting in front of them while as you said I ve no control over it, I don't even know something is wrong unless somebody makes a comment. This has got to be one of the cruelest conditions possible, what a nightmare my life has been. Thanks for your post, it's nice to realise I m not alone though I wouldn't wish this condition on anybody. I know I'm a year late but this disorder is cruel because we're forced to live/behave like we don't stink or that there isn't a problem when we're around family members and friends. Family and friends say it's all in our heads. But then we go to work, school or any other public place it's a totally different world. In those places for some odd reason... WE STINK! You would think that the people you're around the most (family and friends) would be more likely to smell you, but crazily the people who aren't around you all the time are the ones who can smell you. It's like emotional abuse or even physical abuse. You're being punched daily in the outside world only to come home to be told it never happened. We are being abused and then made to act like it's not happening. We also have to deal with disrespect, humiliation and embarrassment. I think sometimes 'what if I was an evil person in my past life for me to have something so cruel'. I'm just tired of being laughed at. My co-workers have been laughing at me and I know they are! I deserve respect and NONE OF THEM are better than me. This disorder gives people an excuse to treat us with disrespect and give us no consideration. Sometimes I think God hates me and never loved me in the first place.
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Post by tintin10 on Apr 22, 2018 21:19:31 GMT
Hey Possiblehelp,
To be honest I had forgotten about this thread and my reply. It depressed me a little bit rereading what I had wrote as its over one year ago now and I have made absolutely no progress, still stuck in the exact same situation (:. To repeat what I said though you really summed up our predicament very eloquently. Actually you are probably the most active poster on here, trying to give people encouragement or words of advice. It's a great credit to your character, genuinely you deserve a very large pat on the back! Afraid I am not very religious so I can't really relate too well to what you said at the end there. I do honestly envy people who have a strong faith, it must be a great help to them though obviously living with this horrible, cruel condition must be a test of anyone's faith. If I remember correctly from my religion class in school wasn't there this character in the bible called Job who was put through massive trials and tribulations to test his faith? Perhaps you can relate to that. I m guessing is it that our families are so used to us they have kind of gotten used to whatever odours we may have so don't notice it anymore? You are 100% correct about being deserving of respect. I think a danger for people in our situation. is that we face so much hostillity and ridicule everyday we kind of internalise all those negative feelings and start to be very hard on ourselves and even hate ourselves. Can I ask have you seen any improvement with your own condition in the last year? Hope so. Have you any theories as to what might be causing the problems? My own theory is that we all have faulty digestive systems which isn't able to digest most of our food properly. This undigested food in our colons gives certain types of bad bacteria a chance to feed on it and its this bacteria which causes all the bad smells. Certainly I m no expert so my theory could be way off. Anyway thanks again for all your contributions on here, you should change your name to DEFINITE help!!!
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Post by possiblehelp on Dec 21, 2018 17:44:28 GMT
Hey Possiblehelp, To be honest I had forgotten about this thread and my reply. It depressed me a little bit rereading what I had wrote as its over one year ago now and I have made absolutely no progress, still stuck in the exact same situation (:. To repeat what I said though you really summed up our predicament very eloquently. Actually you are probably the most active poster on here, trying to give people encouragement or words of advice. It's a great credit to your character, genuinely you deserve a very large pat on the back! Afraid I am not very religious so I can't really relate too well to what you said at the end there. I do honestly envy people who have a strong faith, it must be a great help to them though obviously living with this horrible, cruel condition must be a test of anyone's faith. If I remember correctly from my religion class in school wasn't there this character in the bible called Job who was put through massive trials and tribulations to test his faith? Perhaps you can relate to that. I m guessing is it that our families are so used to us they have kind of gotten used to whatever odours we may have so don't notice it anymore? You are 100% correct about being deserving of respect. I think a danger for people in our situation. is that we face so much hostillity and ridicule everyday we kind of internalise all those negative feelings and start to be very hard on ourselves and even hate ourselves. Can I ask have you seen any improvement with your own condition in the last year? Hope so. Have you any theories as to what might be causing the problems? My own theory is that we all have faulty digestive systems which isn't able to digest most of our food properly. This undigested food in our colons gives certain types of bad bacteria a chance to feed on it and its this bacteria which causes all the bad smells. Certainly I m no expert so my theory could be way off. Anyway thanks again for all your contributions on here, you should change your name to DEFINITE help!!! Sorry im so late. Its crazy but this problem is confusing because i ask the people who complain about a "smell" when I'm around and they laugh at me like I'm crazy!! My family thinks I'm crazy, my friends and co-workers but yet when I'm around they talk about smells but always look at me like I'm nuts when i tell them that i think they're talking about me.
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