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Post by pep on Jul 5, 2012 20:25:34 GMT
I just never want to wake up.
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Post by Aliveinhell on Jul 5, 2012 23:10:12 GMT
You and me both!
There are plenty of reasons to die, but plenty of reasons to live.
Suicide is not easy. You'll probably end up with scars all over your body like me from a failed attempt.
We all have the emotional scars, so why add physical scars?
Sometimes I have felt homicidal too! But I just don't have it in me. I can't kill others and I can't kill myself.
I'm glad that I found this out though. I used to always have homicidal and suicidal thoughts fill my brain. What a waste of time! I feel too guilty to even kill a spider or any animal. I really don't know how someone can kill anyone, even themself.
It would seem that the level of anger I have within me would make me want to go on a killing rampage. But I am just not a killer.
This condition results in mental abuse on a daily basis and prevents accomplishment of goals and getting and keeping jobs. This makes me mad, sad, and depressed.
In short, this condition drives me insane sometimes. I seem to lose my sanity every once in a while and quit my job and drink lots of alcohol. Then I pick myself up and get another job. It's a bad cycle.
I was really serious about committing suicide less than a month ago. I knew it had to be done. I wanted to end the pain for good. I had to quit the fight. I couldn't do it!
So now that I know I can't kill others or myself, I think my thinking has changed some. I may as well not even think about hurting anyone, myself included.
I've never been able to come to terms with my condition. But now I'm learning that I must. I must try to find a job that I can work alone or away from people.
There are many reasons that I love to live. But I surely know what it feels like to never want to wake up.
I would not mind at all if I would go to bed and never wake up again. I don't know if this feeling will ever pass, as I have felt this way since elementary school.
The main thing that keeps me going is the thought that someone, somewhere is living with something worse than my condition.
Still, I would consider myself lucky if I got into some kind of accident and died suddenly.
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Post by D on Jul 8, 2012 22:03:36 GMT
I tried to kill myself too. Please don't try. Now I have to live with serious digestive problems and a deep sense of misery and depression over the damage I've caused myself. Also I cant find the reason why I get pains after I eat with many tests. I hate my life most days I wish I didn't have to face this medical condition + odor problem anymore. I'm treated like the scum of the earth most places I go. Just keep searching for a cure and talk to someone about your concerns. There is a purpose for your life and a cure out there. You could leave your family and friends sad and they would wish you had spoken to them. Please don't try to kill yourself and especially people with this condition, we often lack support so speak to someone yocu can trust about the issue especially a counsellor who knows ways to get through these difficult times.
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