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Post by Aliveinhell on Oct 5, 2012 18:59:14 GMT
I had sentencing today. The prosecution and judge did not like that I showed no remorse for my alleged crime of stalking my ex-girlfriend. Her parents had the nerve to show up and face me, but my ex was not present.
The judge even stated that after going over the case, that it does not seem like stalking (gross misdemeanor). But he said that I could be charged with other crimes more serious, such as burglary and possession of burglary tools (both felonies) since I was not on the deed to our town home.
I stated in court that my ex and I purchased the town home together and that we were both owners, but I have poor credit and was not on the deed for that reason alone. I stated," her parents are sitting in the back of the courtroom and they both know that I own that town home too." But they will not tell the truth because they want me convicted and punished.
The only true crime that I may have been slightly guilty of was drinking and driving, but I wasn't even charged with that because my alcohol concentration was 0.075, below the legal limit of 0.08.
Because of my lack of remorse, I was sentenced to 1 year in jail and a $3000.00 fine with $900.00 in restitution. But the sentence was stayed for two years on probation, and time served was set at 30 days in jail, and fine was stayed also besides $200.00. But the worst part is that I am not a convicted stalker and will be for life. I called my job and was honest with them and was promptly fired. That's now two jobs lost because of this incident and my ex girlfriends lies and exaggerations.
I can't begin to describe how angry I am. Livid! My ex and her parents have had ample opportunity to retract their lies and have me exonerated, yet refuse to tell the truth. That is the definition of evil.
My ex is just mad at me for finding out that she was involved with another man and wants to punish me. And she sure did!
I am a very forgiving guy, but I just don't think that it's possible to forgive something like this. These are the times that I wished there was a god so that justice could be had in the end.
My girlfriend was the one that was cheating on me, she refused to give me my beloved pet, and she has possession of many of my belongings which I will never get back (I can't prove it's my stuff without receipts). But worst of all, she lied to get me convicted!
Yet...I am the one that pays the price.
I think I need to go to some anger management classes now. I'm not a violent person by any standard, but I am seething with anger.
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Post by malory on Nov 1, 2012 14:37:32 GMT
How are you doing? I hope you have got through this bad period and come out the other end of the tunnel fighting.
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Post by Aliveinhell on Nov 17, 2012 23:41:46 GMT
I went to jail for 18 days, so that's done with. But now I'm being pestered about giving a DNA sample, which is against the law. Only convicted felons must provide a DNA sample. The judge ordered me to give my DNA, but his order is unlawful. So now I must fight that.
I am unwilling to give DNA because they might plant my DNA at a crime scene. That sounds unlikely, but I have reason to be suspicious.
I finally obtained the voice recording of my interview with a deputy while in custody. I was appalled to find that the deputy or prosecutors edited the voice recording, deleting crucial pieces of information.
For instance, when asked if I owned the town home or rented, I replied, "My ex owns it according to the deed, but we both both purchased the place together. I am not on the deed because I had poor credit and no job at the time."
The only part they kept on the voice message was, "My ex owns it." There was many other parts edited out to make it appear that I was guilty.
Knowing that my ex was the only one on the deed, I even stated, "I hope my ex forgives me and lets me pay for the damages." I knew that she had the upper hand since I was not on the deed and may lie to get me convicted. And I was correct. She was always a cutthroat girlfriend, so she'd certainly be out to get me if she was my ex.
In reality, we both did buy the place together. I paid half of everything and even spent time and money fixing the place up to make it better for us.
Unfortunately, it is in my nature to be very honest, and I should not have even spoken with the investigators without a lawyer. I didn't think they would edit the voice recording to make me sound guilty. And to be honest, I really did not think my ex would wish to prosecute me and ruin my life. It seems that you find out a persons true nature when they have you at their mercy.
Anyhow, now I have 2 years of probation to be hassled with. I am a convicted stalker, so my future looks quite bleak.
I have been applying for jobs and I must tell them I am a stalker. I've had interviews that have went very well until I inform them that I am a convicted stalker.
So I see no light at the end of the tunnel; instead, there is nothing but darkness.
I still find it difficult to believe that my ex could put me through this. I treated her very well and gave her whatever she wanted. I gave her back rubs nearly every night because she had scoliosis. She was horrible to me but I put up with her because she accepted me despite having this condition.
Probably the primary reason that fighting occurred was because I was always studying. She hated that I studied all the time, but I did make plenty of time for her. I took her to operas, plays, and other outings all the time. Besides that, she opposed that I liked to drink alcohol once or twice a week, which she did also. I guess that in my mind, it is best not to drink at all simply because it wastes time. But despite drinking, I was a 4.0 student anyhow. So alcohol was not impairing my life in any way.
I think that my ex was primarily against me drinking because when we fought while both of us were drunk, things got more heated than when sober.
I have quit drinking for good now and I do not even miss it at all. Now I have no girlfriend either, so I have plenty of time to study in peace. I also gave up girlfriends for good too. I plan to stay single for life now. It's safer that way.
I can no longer trust anyone now. I feel I may be a bit paranoid now, or more than likely, extremely paranoid! I even cut off contact with all my friends. Well, all two of them anyhow. I just feel like people are out to get me know. I never know the intentions of anybody.
People are so cruel and vindictive.
I think that the sooner that we learn that we cannot trust people, the better off we will be.
Therefore, this is my final message here. I now prefer to have no contact with anyone unless absolutely mandatory. I wish that I could live on a secluded island far out in the middle of the ocean devoid of humankind, but with animals aplenty. I love animals! Animals are not evil. Humans have the potential to be evil and too many are.
I only hope that someone benefits somehow from my message.
The sooner that we learn that we cannot trust people, the better off we will be.
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Post by malory on Nov 24, 2012 21:18:54 GMT
Your ex has damaged you badly. Have faith that not everyone is like her. You allowed her to treat you how she did because of your condition, which made you lose confidence in yourself. Things can't get worse, only better. Get rid of your anger and emanate warmth and friendliness. You will meet new people who are more compassionate than your ex. They are out there and you will find them.
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Post by warlike on Jan 22, 2013 13:52:27 GMT
I'm really sorry about you getting in issue with the law. If you have no past beliefs though I don't think you have too much to worry even though I know that's possible for me to say. You'll probably get away with a excellent, maybe not even that if your protection factor out how frustrated you are.
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Post by Aliveinhell on Dec 6, 2013 14:27:44 GMT
I just re-read my postings after reading some judgmental comments on the Facebook Group that I figured out might be geared towards myself.
So I wanted to clarify some things.
I realize that I am not completely innocent. But a stalking conviction is very detrimental and people prejudge. I am not a stalker, no matter what my record says. I did make some poor choices, but it didn't matter, because I was going to die anyways. The entire case is very complicated. All in all, what I did in totality was to protect my ex, despite her unfaithfulness. I didn't want her to hurt herself upon my death. Regardless, nobody got hurt besides myself. I did some wrong, I know. But a stalker, I am not!
But compared to what happened to me in jail, any wrong I did is extremely minimal. The criminal justice system broke the law with me in a most heinous, unethical manner. In fact, I've never heard of what happened to me happening before, besides in Abu Ghraib prisons.
I realize that my previous posts include statements that are unbecoming and have no positive purpose or influence. I was intoxicated, angry and foolish. Thoughts do not equate to actions. Anyone would be a liar if they claimed to never have a negative thought. I'm just too open and honest, and that is to my detriment sometimes.
I am not a bad person at all, and it's a shame that I feel a need to even say that. I know that some think that I am a faker. I really don't think someone is going to waste their time for over a decade posting hundreds of messages, fighting hard to get through college, and found a website for others with MEBO conditions. I believe that someone was informed that I may be a faker because I have very good control of my symptoms currently because I know what to avoid. Am I a faker because I don't reek 100% of the time? No, absolutely not. I've had this condition practically since I could first remember anything.
Ultimately, there is really no excuse for me posting such statements on this website, nor anywhere else for that matter. I was in a horrible state and needed more help than anyone here, believe me. If I did not have a MEBO condition, I have had terrible things happen in life (the worst that can be imagined) and I would have been extremely disturbed as a person anyhow.
To be completely honest, I just lost it. It took me 18 months to recover enough to begin my life over again. I already have everyone against me, and I don't need anyone else against me. I was even against myself. If any of you want to make me out to be a villain, then fine. I'll be the villain in your mind, but I'm not a villain in reality. If anyone wants to ignore, shun, or blacklist me, then fine. But it seems hypocritical to judge someone over one thing, to condemn, shun, brand with a scarlet letter. I think we all know what it's like to be perpetual victims of misjudgment and prejudice.
Some may question why I hide behind an anonymous guest name. I felt like I'd be naked if I were to expose myself. I felt like I didn't want to be known for letting people down, especially people that know me. I didn't want people to misjudge me. I didn't have anyone to talk to. I was weak and needed support. I was angry and venting steam in an inappropriate manner with my words. If any of you have Never used inappropriate words and/or statements to vent, then I have to admit that your much better than I am in that regard.
I just wanted to post this for everyone to read and admit my fault. I made a mistake posting many statements that are not beneficial for anyone, including myself, and I apologize to everyone.
This board is not the place to further discuss any more about this situation. If anyone wants to further discuss this issue, please feel free to contact me at rimmerben@hotmail.com
Benjamin Rimmer
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Post by axelbuck1 on Feb 17, 2016 8:21:03 GMT
I can't even explain to you how much you NEED to go to a councellor. I've attempted suicide twice - both times by over dose - and was so low, I honestly didn't see any way out at all. In the end, I went to a shrink - like a hard core councellor - and I was helped so much. Overcoming Depression
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